Hold on I’ll find you

Lost is where I’m at now

The yearnings once there

Well they’re still there but not for life

Just for them.

There’s comfort. Yes. But not in you as supposed but in promising waves of end

Each day I dive deeper into an abyss of demising deep

The chains draw closer they get tighter

And my mind is clear and my heart cries savior. I can’t help but wonder if you’re still here beside me.

I mean it is said only the pure in heart shall see you. And pure right now is far from the efforts I’m making.

But you’re also ever near to the broken and contrite heart. And yes I’m broken I’m in desperate need of fixing

Else I sink into the drink of culpability

Knees bent, head fallen sand hearts bowed. The position I’ll take till I’m found

Save me from this YHVH

Save me from myself.

Apex

I seek not validation from anyone, from any man.

I might have loved it before, I might have wanted people to know just how much I’ve heard, how much value you’ve placed on me.But I seek not validation from any man.

I might have wanted men to see me burning for you. To think I was still aligned. To think I was making progress
But I seek not validation from any man

What I seek is you. Just your voice saying “I see your efforts, I see all that you try to do, I see your hunger, I know and I love you.”
The only validation I could ever know

Elohim ya’azor li

Wells of the spirit

The words of the spirit
Without meaning yet we speak the sweet language of the spirit.
Without understanding yet we know that we’re being conformed. To something new irregular, abnormal.
The normalcy of the followers of christ.

We speak, we thirst, we drink.

And we know we’ve drunk when we thirst for more.
Like drunk men we jump in to the rivers of life to drown, never to recover.
We leave Everly empowered to do that which he called us to do
That which he did before us.

The words of the spirit.
We speak we thirst we drink
Pour us a cup of the spirit
Let’s get drunk shall we?

How?

How do i show you I love you
I know I do..
I know because my mind seems to wander to you when I think of anything else
But how do I show you I love you
I want to connect on a deeper level with you.
I’ve given my life to you
I’ve said the words but how do I show you I really mean them my love
I need affirmation
You’ve given me a companion to guide me but how do I know I’m really following?
There’s a yearning in my soul to literally give you my all, to tear my heart out and hand it over to you
To see you everyday.
To converse in deeper realms
To just be with you every second

I want to start this process, I want to stay in this process
Search my heart
Please can you help me jesus ?

I draw

The heart is heavy
There’s a feeling of weariness
I long for rest
My flesh still lives
Can I see your face one more time so I can die again
It’s unexplainable
Incomprehensible
In simple words
I don’t understand lord
It’s so strong
It’s a desire
My life needs more
Of whatever it is you have to offer
Desperately
And I’m ready to offer everything I have
In desperation
Can you hear it?
My hunger, it calls out to you.

Draw near father

He loves you

Have you met HIM

Oh wait you must at least heard about HIM

Oh boy you’d love HIM

I’ll tell you

HE’s a man yet God

You haven’t met a more perfect man

HIS voice oh!

Calm enough to give you peace

Powerful enough to set you ablaze

Tell me you’ve met HIM. How could you not have?

You must have at least seen HIM from afar

No?

HE’s so beautiful

HIS eyes so full of fire

HIS gaze is enough to purify

Oh the passion in them

A fierce lover HE is

He wants to see you smile

HE was obsessed with you before you even knew him

HE made a huge sacrifice for you

HE died to save you

Oh I’m not finished

HE’s super defensive, very protective

HE’d die for you, Again

And when we don’t want HIM

HE waits for us

With a longing so deep so unexplainable

It’s love

HE’s always ready to recieve you

The perfect Gentleman

Now don’t you want to meet HIM

HE waits for you

Ever ready to take your hands and lead you to a blissful journey

And lead you to eternal life

Never to break your heart or forget you

Never to let you go

Have you met JESUS?

Introduction

Being saved comes with a lot of things. It’s first that unexplainable intense feeling of love for your maker. We’ve had those moments of wonder where we’re just in awe of the workings of christ or extreme gladness where we’re thankful for even just identifying as Christians. Let’s not forget the state of brokenness before Christ. We’re familiar with this right? That’s great. If you can’t relate, it’s not a problem. These experiences leave a long lasting change, first find him. Ayn TRUE will help take you on that journey to the cross.

Ayn will be looking at just about everything pertaining to the christ, the bride; his church and all things we can relate to in regards to our faith. Every little heart’s prayer and longing.

Ayn is open to just about anyone looking to find the faith, try and understand it or keep the faith.

The walk with God is a very beautiful journey that gives life. Let’s go and that journey together. Shall we?