Apex

I seek not validation from anyone, from any man.

I might have loved it before, I might have wanted people to know just how much I’ve heard, how much value you’ve placed on me.But I seek not validation from any man.

I might have wanted men to see me burning for you. To think I was still aligned. To think I was making progress
But I seek not validation from any man

What I seek is you. Just your voice saying “I see your efforts, I see all that you try to do, I see your hunger, I know and I love you.”
The only validation I could ever know

Elohim ya’azor li

How?

How do i show you I love you
I know I do..
I know because my mind seems to wander to you when I think of anything else
But how do I show you I love you
I want to connect on a deeper level with you.
I’ve given my life to you
I’ve said the words but how do I show you I really mean them my love
I need affirmation
You’ve given me a companion to guide me but how do I know I’m really following?
There’s a yearning in my soul to literally give you my all, to tear my heart out and hand it over to you
To see you everyday.
To converse in deeper realms
To just be with you every second

I want to start this process, I want to stay in this process
Search my heart
Please can you help me jesus ?

I draw

The heart is heavy
There’s a feeling of weariness
I long for rest
My flesh still lives
Can I see your face one more time so I can die again
It’s unexplainable
Incomprehensible
In simple words
I don’t understand lord
It’s so strong
It’s a desire
My life needs more
Of whatever it is you have to offer
Desperately
And I’m ready to offer everything I have
In desperation
Can you hear it?
My hunger, it calls out to you.

Draw near father

He loves you

Have you met HIM

Oh wait you must at least heard about HIM

Oh boy you’d love HIM

I’ll tell you

HE’s a man yet God

You haven’t met a more perfect man

HIS voice oh!

Calm enough to give you peace

Powerful enough to set you ablaze

Tell me you’ve met HIM. How could you not have?

You must have at least seen HIM from afar

No?

HE’s so beautiful

HIS eyes so full of fire

HIS gaze is enough to purify

Oh the passion in them

A fierce lover HE is

He wants to see you smile

HE was obsessed with you before you even knew him

HE made a huge sacrifice for you

HE died to save you

Oh I’m not finished

HE’s super defensive, very protective

HE’d die for you, Again

And when we don’t want HIM

HE waits for us

With a longing so deep so unexplainable

It’s love

HE’s always ready to recieve you

The perfect Gentleman

Now don’t you want to meet HIM

HE waits for you

Ever ready to take your hands and lead you to a blissful journey

And lead you to eternal life

Never to break your heart or forget you

Never to let you go

Have you met JESUS?