Hold on I’ll find you

Lost is where I’m at now

The yearnings once there

Well they’re still there but not for life

Just for them.

There’s comfort. Yes. But not in you as supposed but in promising waves of end

Each day I dive deeper into an abyss of demising deep

The chains draw closer they get tighter

And my mind is clear and my heart cries savior. I can’t help but wonder if you’re still here beside me.

I mean it is said only the pure in heart shall see you. And pure right now is far from the efforts I’m making.

But you’re also ever near to the broken and contrite heart. And yes I’m broken I’m in desperate need of fixing

Else I sink into the drink of culpability

Knees bent, head fallen sand hearts bowed. The position I’ll take till I’m found

Save me from this YHVH

Save me from myself.

How?

How do i show you I love you
I know I do..
I know because my mind seems to wander to you when I think of anything else
But how do I show you I love you
I want to connect on a deeper level with you.
I’ve given my life to you
I’ve said the words but how do I show you I really mean them my love
I need affirmation
You’ve given me a companion to guide me but how do I know I’m really following?
There’s a yearning in my soul to literally give you my all, to tear my heart out and hand it over to you
To see you everyday.
To converse in deeper realms
To just be with you every second

I want to start this process, I want to stay in this process
Search my heart
Please can you help me jesus ?